how can people just throw people away? everytime ive ever severed a friendship, it has eaten me up and somewhat consumed me. i feel for people so much
i see this old pseudo friend tonight.
we drive past her car, she pretends she doesnt see me. which is ok.
then walking out of ruby tuesdays, she is walking into the mall.
we have total eye contact. she stops in her tracks standing in the foyer.
i waved at her and she looks to the ground.
im thinking what the fuck. how can you pretend you dont know me. it really
hurts me. ill tell you why.
this girl doesnt make sense, ive cried out to her many times. about how she is
to hard on herself, and what an awesome person she is. i truely do believe
this. so her boyfriend moved away to california. i tried calling her to check on her
no response. i tried stopping into her place of employment, little response. i tried to
make a date with her, to take her out to dinner, or i would bring dinner to her house
just cause i was worried about a friend. i tried calling her the day of our date...which was
about 4 days later. no response. no response. no response.
so later i see her at the red eye. no comment. she pretty much is
cold to me. its like what did i do? i dont understand. ive been trying to be a good friend to you.
i see her again at the red eye. no hello, no how are you nothing.
we were really close friends a while ago. i dont get it.
so i went home, made her a talking stick out of a mallard feather, and some stones. i gifted it to
her along with a letter saying hey, im not mad. just talk to me. your friends
cant be there for you if u shut them out. i love you and am worried about you.
alas....now she absolutely pretends she doesnt know me.
what to do? do i ignore her from here on out, because i honestly dont
think she is right mentally. do i scream at her? do i kick in her tail lights.
i am torn. i have a hard time just throwing away friendships
why does being empatheic have to be so pathetic?
and people wonder why i dont try to make new friends.
and why i shut myself up in my house.
i feel so frustrated sometimes. Current Mood: confused