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Monday, May 30th, 2005
9:39 pm
so today at about 11:00 am we got a call there was a dead pug on midland rd.

Shatszi had been missing since last thursday.
we drove out there and there he was on the side of the road.
we took him to get him creamated.

we will get his ashes next week.
thanks to everyone who was looking for him.
Monday, May 16th, 2005
10:58 pm
The Misunderestimated wants you!
Here is a questionaire that has been floating around, but this one is for THE WHOLE BAND! If you fill this out for us, we will fill one out for you!

we committed suicide:
we said I liked you:
we kissed you:
we lived next door to you:
we started smoking:
we stole something:
we was hospitalized:
we ran away from home:
we got into a fight and you weren't there:


[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have we affected you?
[5] What do you think of us?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of us?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love us?
[9] Have we ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug us?
[11] Would you kiss us?
[12] Would you like to have sex with us?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish we were cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice are we?
[17] Give us a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Are we loveable?
[19] How long have you known us?
[20] Describe us in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about us now?
[23] What do you think our weakness is?
[24] Do you think we'll get signed?
[25] What about us makes you happy?
[26] What about us makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of us?
[28] What's something you would change about us?
[29] How well do you know us?
[30] Ever wanted to tell us something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think we would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what we say about you?

Current Mood: calm
Friday, May 13th, 2005
10:38 pm
how can people just throw people away? everytime ive ever severed a friendship, it has eaten me up and somewhat consumed me. i feel for people so much

i see this old pseudo friend tonight.
we drive past her car, she pretends she doesnt see me. which is ok.
then walking out of ruby tuesdays, she is walking into the mall.
we have total eye contact. she stops in her tracks standing in the foyer.
i waved at her and she looks to the ground.
im thinking what the fuck. how can you pretend you dont know me. it really
hurts me. ill tell you why.
this girl doesnt make sense, ive cried out to her many times. about how she is
to hard on herself, and what an awesome person she is. i truely do believe
this. so her boyfriend moved away to california. i tried calling her to check on her
no response. i tried stopping into her place of employment, little response. i tried to
make a date with her, to take her out to dinner, or i would bring dinner to her house
just cause i was worried about a friend. i tried calling her the day of our date...which was
about 4 days later. no response. no response. no response.
so later i see her at the red eye. no comment. she pretty much is
cold to me. its like what did i do? i dont understand. ive been trying to be a good friend to you.
i see her again at the red eye. no hello, no how are you nothing.
we were really close friends a while ago. i dont get it.
so i went home, made her a talking stick out of a mallard feather, and some stones. i gifted it to
her along with a letter saying hey, im not mad. just talk to me. your friends
cant be there for you if u shut them out. i love you and am worried about you.
alas....now she absolutely pretends she doesnt know me.
what to do? do i ignore her from here on out, because i honestly dont
think she is right mentally. do i scream at her? do i kick in her tail lights.
i am torn. i have a hard time just throwing away friendships
why does being empatheic have to be so pathetic?
and people wonder why i dont try to make new friends.
and why i shut myself up in my house.
i feel so frustrated sometimes.

Current Mood: confused
Thursday, May 12th, 2005
9:28 pm
cut my heart out
with a piece of glass
drown me in your pain
your energy is methane.
im falling
im falling
im falling
into a pit of ugly hate
your the pulpit
i was raped on
sadomasochistic sunshine
is for the birds.
and the sarchasim is getting thick as mud

dont ask me what i think
cause you dont care
dont ask for my help
cause you dont want it
dont look for me
when your blue
dont act like you care
cause you dont
dont look for me
when your lonely
dont ignore me
when your not
dont use me
done leave me
dont love me
dont tease me
and dont leave me
just dont ok just dont
let me take my heart
off my sleeve
so you can chew it up
and spit it in my face
along with my generosity
and my time.

putting on the show
is so mundane
your act of life is so blaze
so here take the mask
you begged me to take off
and then refuse to look in my eyes
so bend over
and take it
like the little bitch you are.


Current Mood: mellow
Saturday, April 23rd, 2005
8:57 pm
ok so we went to look at a space today.
kinda pricey
it is helping to formulate exactly what is needed.
drove around ojibwa island...the book is in the works
that is going to be some dope shit
later we went to gypsies in baycity
nice concept...a coffee house spirit store deli resteraunt reiki space...ate a chocolate peanut butter brownie
had a episode of an itchy knee. i would recommend checking it out.

bought some malachite from glad rags

was a fun day

1 question:
why is it snowing again?

Current Mood: indescribable
Monday, April 18th, 2005
5:31 pm
it is so gorgeous outside. i saw 85 degrees while driving down the road. apr 18th and 85degrees damn!

so i am really wanting reiki ii 2 start soon. i feel the surge of energy. i use reiki nearly, if not daily. i absolutely love it. it is amazing and great.

i have another class coming up. today i felt one near me. she touched my shoulder. and my neck. and said to take a few deep breaths.

this is a weird one, and normally i dont dream about famous people...but last night i dreamt sheryl crow came over. she was wearing black leather pants. she came over to wish me a happy birthday. wierd huh. she told me messy sent her, because tori wasnt currently available...but tori would be calling soon. its odd cause i often dream of people calling me. and we will converse over the phone....its wierd.

i called Flint School OF therapeutic massage...hopefully with my new hours they can get me into the grad program. i feel the need to be working with energy and massage...and it isnt happening as quickly as it could or should...but hey all things in time.

why do i end statements with...
whats with the ...
i think...
they are meant to show...


Current Mood: contemplative
Thursday, April 14th, 2005
11:00 pm
so hey i been 2 cali and back.
had a good time and spent time with some old friends.
it was nice to share energy and laughter.

as times goes by
i wish i would meet some more people like me

at one point in my life i felt like i had a lot of friends
and i cherish the ones i have now

but sometimes i feel like i have few people
who understand who i am
why i think the way i do
why i believe what i believe

today at work i was explaining to my team what blue corn is used for
they looked at me like i am crazy
which, i guess i am :)

i seems like often i wish i had some people
to hang out with and do things with
that were...more like me
if that makes sense
i want some loser friends
with nothing better to do then hang out with me
HAHA ... hehe just kidding.

cdog i miss ya. we always found a way to entertain outselves

all is good my shift changed at work and i like it.

Current Mood: crazy
Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
11:11 pm
well im 27.
ive made it another year.
look out world here i come.
i hope 27 brings me some new friends and new opportunities.
its already starting.
Thursday, January 27th, 2005
11:39 pm

i wish u were here. i remember when we took your car to lansing in the dead of winter. now here it is the winter and your dead. i hear the chant of why why why why why why
and i still dont know why
i wish we could hang out and play like we used to. i remember dancing thru cemetarys getting lost feeling like the roads we changeing.
i remember everything. i remember. i wish
i wish
i wish
i could do a few things differently. i wish i could find tape #1.
the one with space man monkey on it
do you?
do you remember?

your birthday is comming up soon. remember the balloons? the apple tree? the son of morning?

why havent you called lately, why havent you called?
12:02 am
i love the blessed virgin mary.
Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
7:51 pm
full moon jan 2005

so i dunno. im feeling the rush of the full moon. its whurling around so fast. like a racecar. rushing.
work: very much full moony and insane. Buggie was breathing down my neck about selling fuckign internet and its like if i wasn't fixing everyone else's fuck-up's i would be able to.

so i got home and here sit our young living order. talk about crazy substances. i absolutely LOVE young living oil. i can't say enough good things about them. to me when i smell them, they raise my vibrations like no other oil. they make me tingle. wow. i cant even put into words how they make me feel. they have this oil called white angelica, its a blend of different oils, and its so cool.

tonight i am due to go to the massage school, and then hang out with baxter420.

i shall return. sometime.
12:04 am
"Way Down" tori amos

Maybe I'm the afterglow
Cause I'm with the band
you know
Don't you hear the laughter
On the way down
Yes I am the anchorman
Dining here with
Son of Sam
A hair too much to chat of
On the way down
Gonna meet a great big star
Gonna drive his great big car
Gonna have it all here
On the way down
The way down
The way down
She knows
Let's go
The way down
The way down
The way down
She knows
Monday, January 24th, 2005
11:46 pm
isnt it funny how songs can take youback

to a moment.
i just was listening to my yahoo! launch station. good shit right there.
its wierd. all so wierd.
life is such an odd wierd thing. its cold.
i wish i could sit at home for a month. and not go out side. the snow is cold.
so my special class starts soon. getting fucking excited.
also found out i might be going to cali. that would be fun.

Saturday, January 8th, 2005
9:36 am
blondie fucking rocked the hizzy last night. debbie harry rocked it hard and hasnt lost a note. she looked sensational.

Saturday, January 1st, 2005
9:54 pm
happpy 2005 mutha fuckers.
happy new year mutha-fuckers.

i cant believe its 2005. crazy

new years was fun and laid back. nice to enjoy a quiet evening with the kids and mkydoodle. we watched south park bigger,longer and uncut. troop beverly hills and drop dead fred. we played some games and ate snacks.

today spent the day going thru old photos and organizing a spare bedroom. making room for my massage table and room for reiki treatments. a little hideaway if u will. found esp a lot of pics of sillyfacegirl and c-dog. its crazy.

well i hope u all have a super safe and fun new year.
Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
12:04 am

Your Element Is Water

A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted
and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also
are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily.
You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others.
You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around
waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little
more peaceful.

Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
11:27 pm

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

11:26 pm

You Are From Mercury

You are talkative, clever, and knowledgeable - and it shows.
You probably never leave home without your cell phone!
You're witty, expressive, and aware of everything going on around you.
You love learning, playing, and taking in all of what life has to offer.
Be careful not to talk your friends' ears off, and temper your need to know everything.

Monday, November 29th, 2004
8:39 am
you got fat
so sat night mikey and i go to walmart to browse the christmas decorations.

i see this chick i used to wait on at the photo lab. she calls my name out, i realize who it is and we begin to chit-chat. so out of the blue during our conversation...she proceeds to inform me, as if i didnt notice..."Wow, You Got Fat." and if that wasnt enough..or as if i wouldnt belilve her, "I mean Like REALLY Fat." she proceeded.i sort of cowered...not realizing it. "oh well ya know ihave quit smoking...and i sit on my ass 40 hours a week,blah blah blah.". now that i look back on it i really wish i would have said "ya know that is not socially acceptable" or "dont you think i see myself naked in the mirror, everyday? thanks for making me feel just a little shittier about myself i really appreciate it".

"you got fat,like really fat".

Current Mood: blah
Friday, November 12th, 2004
8:13 pm

what a long tedious week. today about dragged on. found out our car needs a new engine. thats just lovely. about $4,200 for the job. nice huh? i think it is lovely.

this weekend is going to be fun. i am going to relax, clean and on sunday im taking my sista 2 belovedlake's for her 1st reading. then going to midland to see a show on egyptian art. that will be fun i hope.

i gave up coffee for about a year. this guy jim i work with brought me a cup one day. i smelled it. it was like an old friend. it smelled so good. i told him no i couldnt do it....a few moments later...i said "hey jim...can i take u up on that cup of coffee". ive been drinking it daily since. damn coffee is such a good thing. im so happy i started drinking it again. i still drink 1st thing in the am...followed but a cup of juice, followed by my beloved java. i love you java.

i gave nutz some reiki today. also gave some to my friend marie.
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